When we go through the difficult and challenging times in our marriage, it makes us so grateful for the good times. What a season of enduring "in sickness and in health" but I am so thankful that I have this guy next to me. He has been so patient, loving and supportive through it all...and by my side when I have felt the most broken and alone.
Over the last four months we've experienced:
- a pregnancy (after trying for one year)
- a miscarriage
- countless tests, ultrasounds and doctor visits
- surgery (D&C)
- diagnosis of 5+ uterine tumors, even as big as a large potato
In another two months, I go back for another surgery to take care of those tumors.
Please be patient with me as I haven't felt like writing at all or posting any DIY projects lately. The bottom just fell out of our world. Every part of our lives have changed. Every single part. Forever. It amazes me that women have actually survived this heartbreak and lived to tell about it. If you are a praying person, I ask that you pray for my husband and I as we go through this journey together, individually, and as a couple.
Maybe at some point, I'll truly be able to put into written words what is so difficult to express: Walking the path of our grief, and our healing. Maybe it will help others to see that they are not alone. This needs to be talked about and eventually, step by step the taboo nature will be broken.
The following song (among many) has become an anthem for me I guess. Read the words and may you be encouraged. There is hope in the Lord.
Maybe at some point, I'll truly be able to put into written words what is so difficult to express: Walking the path of our grief, and our healing. Maybe it will help others to see that they are not alone. This needs to be talked about and eventually, step by step the taboo nature will be broken.
The following song (among many) has become an anthem for me I guess. Read the words and may you be encouraged. There is hope in the Lord.
Yet I Will Praise, written by Andy Park (no relation)
I will praise You Lord my God
Even in my brokenness
I will praise You Lord
I will praise You Lord my God
Even in my desperation
I will praise You Lord
And I can't understand
All that You allow
I just can't see the reason
But my life is in Your hands
And though I cannot see You
I choose to trust You
Even when my heart is torn, I will praise You Lord
Even when I feel deserted, I will praise You Lord
Even in my darkest valley, I will praise You Lord
And when my world is shattered, and it seems all hope is gone
Yet I will praise You Lord
I will trust You Lord my God
Even in my loneliness
I will trust You Lord
I will trust You Lord my God
Even when I cannot hear You
I will trust You Lord
And I will not forget
That You hung on a cross
Lord You bled and died for me
And if I have to suffer
I know that You've been there
And I know that you're here now
Even when my heart is torn, I will trust You Lord
Even when I feel deserted, I will trust You Lord
Even in my darkest valley, I will trust You Lord
And when my world is shattered, and it seems all hope is gone
Yet I will praise You Lord
As I was clicking away on my computer, I happened upon this blog. I do not know you but I do know your pain. I do know the journey of healing because I do know the same Lord you serve. I believe in the power of the name of Jesus and I believe that every situation, every creature and every mindset must submit to the power and authority of His name. I am believing this for you and for your husband. I am at this moment believing and praying that God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above all that we could ever ask or imagine. I am believing and praying for complete and supernatural healing in your body! I pray a guard around your heart and mind which is in Christ Jesus. Stand firm, wait patiently and see the Him work mightily on your behalf. Great is His faithfulness! I look forward to the testimony that will follow! I pray all this in the mighty name of Jesus, the One and Only!
ReplyDeleteThank you Lana for your prayer and encouragement. Oh how we cherish it! And oh, how we need it.
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